~Sebuah Kehidupan~

today selasa.. aku keja pagi.. and today jugak aku still incharge of acute cubicle.. hemm.. cubicle 2 consist of 6 bed only.. tp klau patient yg okay.. okay la.. klau patient yg more ill is quite difficult to handle even 6 bed.. tp ikt time gak la.. sometimes, ada one patient only or 2, 3.. it's depend.. hari ni ada 5 patient.. quite okay.. cuma nk kongsi pasal p.cik bed 111.. dia from rumah orang-orang tua Seri Kenangan.. pity him.. his admit bcoz of abscess on his elbow.. plan for wound debridement kiv arthrotomy washout.. p.cik ni dh tua.. but xigt la how old is he.. nyanyok xla sgt tp ada jgk la.. biasa la org tua..
kemarin aku talifon Rumah Seri Kenangan.. mintak wakil dorg dtg sbb dktor nk amik  consent untuk insert CVP.. lpas 2 medical plan ntuk insert femoral catheter n plan ntok hemodialysis skali sbb renal profile dia not too good.. aku ada tanya wakil dorg, p.cik ni xda sapa ka..? and i was inform dia ada ank.. tp anak dia tggl kt kedah.. aku tanya lg.. pihak Seri Kenangan xda inform anak dia ka yg p.cik masok ward..? dorg ada inform.. tp so far aku keja xpenah nmpak lg sapa2 dtg mlawat dia.. sanggup dorg.. sibuk sgt ka.. smpai xboleh nk dtg.. dh la xnk jga p.cik .. even nk dtg jenguk pun x.. smpai hati dorg..  sedih aku tgk keadaan p.cik 2..
setiap kali makanan smpai aku akn try cari time ntok bg p.cik mkn.. wlaupun a bit delay.. tp dia xnk mkn.. dia  ckp xlalu nk mkn.. padahal dia dh xmkn dari kemarin.. pagi ni aku paksa dia mkn jugak.. tp tu pun sikit sgt.. aku ckp kt p.cik kena mkn, sbb nnt p.cik kena puasa.. tp still xnk mkn.. cuma mkn bihun 1 sudu ja..dia ckp dia xlalu, xpa dia ckp klau kena puasa pun.. dia ckp mknan 2 simpan, nnt la dia mkn.. setiap kali aku p nk bg dia mkn.. ttp xnk.. p.cik..p.cik..
kesian aku tgk dia.. cara dia ckp mcm dh regret.. refuse mcm 2.. klau nk mkn ubat, kena pujuk dulu baru dia mkn.. smalam, time my cellique.. dia pull out CVP line, branula...
tp nk salahkan ank dia 100% pun xbley jgk.. sbb kita xtau cita sebenar kn.. mgkin p.cik ni ada slh ka previously.. xtau la.. hanya tuhan mengetahui segalanya..
Heemm.. teringat td.. kt ward ada student.. but xnk la mention which college they are.. and td jugak ada blood transfusion,.. CI dorg tanya sapa nk amik cross? lpas 2 dia assign one of the student ntok buat blood transfusion 2.. thu student 2 jwb pa..? sy xnk la puan, sy xboleh tgk darah sgt.. klau tgk darah sy rasa pening2.. OMG!! a student nurse answering that kind of question like that.. so, what for u being a nurse klau xboley tgk darah... boleh jwb mcm 2.. klau CI ktorg dlu, mampos kena bising, lacture suma ada..
hai xtau la.. i think tu je kot yg aku nk cita ntok hari ni.. mengantuk dh... got to go.. outt!!

02.03.2012

today... hemm already 2012... and today is siti nornazua's birthday.. happy birthday kak wa.. hope ur birthday blossoms into lots of dreams come true my dear sis.... actually nothing to write or nothing tell one.. but i am waiting for my fren rite now.. so, while waiting for her i'm lay o this page for a while.. hahaha... bubuye.. out!!!

i love u

i love u syg... whatever u r... n i always love u forever...;)))))

yesterday perfect two..;)

PERFECT.

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly

You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly

You can be the captain and I can be your first mate

You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick

You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split

You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'

Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess

You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist

You can be the shoes and I can be the laces

You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser

You can be the pencil and I can be the paper

You can be as cold as the winter weather

But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya

And you know that I think about ya

And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that you smile

And maybe in just a while

I can see me walk down the isle

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

G.R.E.A.T + D.A.M.N

huhhhh.. rasa dh lama xupdate my blog..So,... what it's all about... heemmm.. MY FEELING again. so, mane satu that u gonna talk 1st, great 1st la hoaa.. 

okey... actually i'm happy to say that on this momment, i love someone... really, dh lama xrase mcm ni.. tp xnk cite panjang la.. sbb nobody know about this yet.. belom bersedia untok diceritakan lg.. tp aku harap this is the last i fall in love.. 

Ya Allah.. aku mohon kepadaMu berkati la hubungan ini.. kekalkan lah jodoh kami hingga akhir hayat..amin.. MZ- i miss u rite now.. 

pasal damn ni.. xbest la.. sedih+xsyok+benci+serabut nk memikirkan.. aku pun xtau nk cite mcm mana.. nk di conclude kn my sister is doing problem wit me... before, i was so stress bacause of her but i didn't mention.. but today, i cant stand anymore..bkn aku xsyg my sister but... aku btol2 terasa dgn dia.. i was try to be good enough.. but she do not respect me.. i don't want to blame her alone.. ade jgk yg buat dia jd mcm 2.. tp the reason that her gave is not strong enough to defense her. 

and between all these, someone is begging me to help him to settle the problem between him and her.. huhh.. xnk salahkn dia, budak ni mmg bgus.. dia luahkan segalanya dkt aku.. but how i'm going to help u even my prob also tergantung mcm 2 je.. but i'll try how..

baru2 ni my sister need about RM500..dia kene saman..OMG..this month trully i said, btol2 xckup duit.. tp thu plak dia mntak dkt aku even dia buat hal dengan aku kn.. tp, aku ni xla kejam sgt to ignore her just like that rite.. dia 2 degil la, keras kepala... i dont how to say.. but she is..! 

ohhh... please.. let this feeling go away... i don't know to whom i'm going to express my feeling... but thanks i have u blog... klau nk pkir mmg serabut.. biar la masa yg menentukan.. tp xbley jgk kn.. ;(

hujan

huhuhuhu... nk kuar xbley... hari raya hujan je.. dok je la kt umah ni.. budak2 ni terkandas la kt umah aku.. xbley nk gerak..aku lpar gler ni, igt nk g jln2 cari mkn..tp hujan xbley la nk kuar.. hujan rahmat ni di pagi hari raya aidiladha.. hahaha... izzat ismail, abd latif, aznot, n faizal...duduk la korg kt sini...sian plak aku tgk.. pakat monyok je kt sini... ala, jp g stop la hujan 2..don't worry k..terkandas la perjalanan dorg.. aku pun same la...huhuhuh... nk g cari bihun sup, rase nk mkn bihun sup la... umah izzat ismail buat bihun sup.. jap g nk serbu la... 

2 hujan dh makin reda... jap g bley la kuar jap..hehhe... got to go...bubye...

pagi raya

hai..mls la nk update bad thing je..pg2 raye plak tu..pagi raye dh spoil mood aku... ade je yg nk bg mood aku ni swing kn..eeee...bnci r.... tpmlsnk cite sbb ape...skit hati gler ni.. aku bnci ngan perasaan aku sndiri, npe aku ni snsitive sgt r..touching kt bnda yg bdoh.. pastu nangis sorg2.. sape pun xthu.. ntah la, ni mmg jnis aku, xreti nk tell out my feeling..aku lebih suka pndam je...even it's hurt..

sometimes, aku nk jd mcm org yg slalu skitkn hati org..hati keras, xpenah touching.. tp boleh ke??? btw, today is hari raya aidiladha.. get ur self happy hasniza, even ur close person makes u cry.. xpela.. mgkin ade something yg aku buat kot.. but please always think positive k.. 

eeemmmm... i'm waiting for izzat ismail.. td tepon ckp nk dtg.. tp xsmpai2 lg.. ade kt mne pun xtau... mlsnya nk kluar g beraye... tp hari ni je la nk jln2 pun, klau hari lain xde dh nk jln2 kt kg ni.. tp my mood is swing over dh.. urmmm.. please get myself better.. ble blik umah sesekali jd mcm ni plak... what should i do.. ape lg yg xkena ni.. i try to be the best.. arrrrghhh... please.. don't wanna talk about this anymore.. letih la.. 

HASNIZA BINTI HASHIM... don't worry.. everything gonna be alrite k.. SMILE;)